Graduating from college at Tarleton State University was an initial disappointment, finishing my long journey felt more like an epic failure than a scholarly achievement. While my peers seemed to have a much better grasp on the direction they were heading, I was still going in circles.
Something didn’t feel right about creating a resume; it was almost a year later before I understood why.
After I had thrown in the towel trying to force all of my limited options into making my wildest dreams come true, I finally let go of my previous chapter’s ambitions. I knew I was living in a small town with a glass ceiling I had already faced multiple times; nothing could change that. The next week I announced to my yoga classes that I would be leaving in one month; during that time I helped transition a few of my long time students into the active role of teacher.
I taught them everything I knew that they had interest in learning, ‘the rest’, I said, would be learned along their own journeys.
My plan came together quickly, I didn’t waste any time moving forward once I realized that staying was no longer an option. My stepfamily travels with the pipeline, a lifestyle that afforded me a childhood of adventure. I even spent a chapter of my adult life working for my stepdad on his pipeline crew, soaking up lessons I would have never been fortunate enough to learn anywhere else. When I learned that the next job would be taking them to Arizona, I jumped at the chance to rejoin them. It was the perfect plan to get me to California; I would work in Arizona for a few months, save up some money, and then head to Hollywood.
I wrapped up my last few classes, sold and gave away most of my things, moved out of my apartment and into a family member’s travel trailer until we would leave. Shortly after I arrived to my temporary home, I learned the job fell through, Arizona was off the table. I was momentarily devastated, but held on to the intuitive knowing that even though part of my plan fell apart that didn’t mean I had to give up on it altogether.
It’s a lesson I still believe to be one of the most valuable, always be adaptable to changes and learn to continue building something out of nothing.